friends gone by....

.....friends made........friends lost.....

28 years of my life......lots of friends made....in school...in college...in life...
but this friendship day, all I can think about three friends only...three special friends lost...two who are not any more........and one who lost in time...

anna...the dude with whitest teeth in d world...the person who was known for his absurd sense of humor...met in dispur college....who became so close to my life in just two years...but who suddenly left me one day...a bike accident in new guwahati tini ali left lots of people short of one good person in their lives...including me....love u bhai...hope you are in good company up there....

baba...the fresh breeze in the lives of all who knew this cool man...he had the capability of let you feel the beauty of life with his few words...minimalistic approach to the world....just when i needed you the most, you left me...and many more...without the feel of being near u.....sudden demise of this friend..sankalp kalita...will be one burden which i will carry through my life...rest in peace buddy.....i will really miss u....

the last one is lost from my life....lost in oblivion...for some reason whatsoever...still not known to me....one day...suddenly he decided to leave it all and be lost in oblivion...to be lost in the world of his own...in order to justify myself...still i think that he did not have the guts to face the world for some promises he could not stand by...but dost...u don't have to feel the same way with friends....if you remember...i captioned one of my photos.."the best thing about good friends is that you can afford to be stupid with them...."..but man you never considered us to be good friends....all i want to say is this is not fair...you cannot take both the decisions...to be friends and also not to be....it makes such a huge difference in our lives...may be you wont understand...you wont...

anyhow...i still have some of the best gems in my life...thanks for being there....pankaj, manas, ketela manas, raj, sanku, palash, dipluka, surya, piyush, babu, and all those whose names i cant remember after 2 beers in me now... cheers to u all...

Being ALIVE

Its my birthday today. Feels good. Feels like this single day in the year makes me feel special. Incidentally watched 'We are family' tonight which shows Kajol's character with a terminal disease. Ok...u ask wat's d point? Wats d common thing?

I try to figure out very often now a days that what is the most powerful reason for me being happy with my life.

Its that I am alive.

God's greatest gift! Ever felt the desire to be alive? I feel it when I get sick....because nothing matters once u r gone buddy! Think about it. U will feel better..

Ok....happy birthday to me.....thank u god......love

PEEPLI [LIVE]

Watched peepli live yesterday. Quite a satire it was...leaving me depressed at the end. On the eve of the independence day, the movie challanged the belief of the "Great indian dream". I remember advocating the fact of 'India being new land of opportunity' in one of my recent GDs. Being a stock broker, I had enough facts and figures to support my words (as a SB is always supposed to have). I remember quoting indian success stories like Bharat Forge, MoserBaer etc. At the end of the GD, my boss pointed, "ever thought of the 70 odd percent of indians facing the heat?".

I, Myself being from a farmer's family have seen enough of that. The floods in Assam have many times killed our years. But then people wanted to give it one more try. Now, when I go to my village, I see young people leaving their land to go to places like Bangalore etc for jobs, mainly that of security guards or construction labor for few thousand bucks. But what else can they do? No one likes to stay away from their loved ones.

Peepli live just zoomed on this. Great movie. Sharp and mean.

Now when I look at myself, it seems my case is just a modified version of them. I migrated to get a job, to earn, to make my living.... Deep down, this emptiness creeps in slowly. Here I remember my friend Pallav's quote "Amalgamation of rustic freedom and urban boredom". Yes man. I sometimes get confused....what I am doing and. Why!!!!

This is my version of peepli live...the urban one... And no journalist thinks its a 'breaking news'!!!